*Love*

I have always been volatile in emotions and while it was not intended it aint surprising that my post today is about love but the very last one i wrote was one in anger.. Man has a variety of emotions and the strongest ones of em are and love and hate and ironically directly opposing each other.. Oh well....

Love...
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now..

Many people know i am a hopeless romantic, love being the most vital facet of my life.. The eternal search for it happens to be the theme of my life.. I never knew how to show my love.. Blessed with a pretty impressive vocabulary i never cld pen it to show how much someone means to me... Blessed with a variety of novel ideas to help someone else's love i never could put in anything to show off my own concern for another..

The mother of invention is necessity.. Similarly when we lack something do we really notice the things we take for granted.. I was blessed with a great group of friends who showered love each time we met.. the fun and outings we had showed how much we needed each other.. now days i felt i have lost that feeling, the excuses i hear the delay tactics all make me yearn to turn back time... Sighs but wats done is done and rather than regret i choose to see the love u showered on me before...

I had an ex someone i was very mean to i agree.. i did alot of things that shocked me till today..But when we ended it i though i came clean and apologised for all i did.. i neva knew what came over me when i said or did the things i made u do...but i think i knew is when i apologised i put my heart out to say i am sorry and as a fren or even a wellwisher i wish u all the best in your future i meant it.. i didnt apologised to get u back, no i knew we were not suited for each other, we were too different...but wen we did a clear the air talks i thought at least we didnt hate each other anymore.. but sadly i dnt think it is so.. i know u still hate me, and its sad to say i up till recently didnt realise this.. i guess i was naive.. this is not a dig at you or anything i jus wanna repeat that i was sorry for what i did, and it took two hands to clap, i didnt have that good a time in that r/s as well..

I had alot of people i was naive enough to believe that were friends.. my last blog entry was my realisation setting in... looking at how much these people talked about me, how much they hated me... sighs.. i dnt hate u guys, i hate myself for trusting you people.. and as they say no one hurts u more than the ones who u hold close to you....

Some of you reading might be going thru and for a fact i know a couple of you are BUT dnt reply hate with hate.. You get nowhere. just because one good fren let you down u end up looking at another with a distrusting eye.. Trust no one is a common phrase i seen thrown about.. lol. love needs trust and we dnt trust anyone no wonder the world we live in is so gloomy.. The next time someone betrays you maybe its time for you to take the hurt and reflect.. than remember you still have someone else loving you for exactly who you are..

God Bless You Guys